Heyo! The second book cover I designed is now on sale at lulu! This book is also kind of AMAZING (and i’m not saying that just cause i designed it) It’s a really great read with excellent flow & perfect grammar (and i’m not saying that just cause Erin was the copy editor!) GO BUY IT!

GO BUY IT! After you’ve purchased the book and read it COVER to COVER go check out how I made it & other work by me :) I need the ego Boost!

Jay popped over last night to pick up some of Itzel’s things. He was so adorbs taking pics of the apt to show itzel how i changed it up. meanwhile i’m behind him both hiding from the camera and yelling “don’t show the floor in my room! its messy!”

Look, okay my house is not a dump! But is it up to itzel’s standards of clean! I know my mexicano!

we sat on the new couch catching up on the last few weeks. its so weird to not see him on the regs! hearing his insights about life, and love made me miss itzel’s often yelled-from-another-room color commentary more than ever!

bitter sweet to see him! Right now he’s packing for his mexican vacation as he’s flying out for itzel’s big day! She’s almost in her mid-late 20s ya’ll! woot woot!

If i didn’t spend my money on cable & a couch i’d be going as well! Blast!

Look. I know that i neglect you, mostly on Tuesdays.

please dont hate me. i appreciate your resilience in the face of unspeakable neglect, rounds of anti biotics, and plenty of good times at the pub w.out skipping a beat.

you are like my internal Jem. Truly Outrageous how much you put up with. Truly Truly Truly Outrageous.

facing work tomorrow w/ a heavy heart head.

when your epiglottis (that danglingly thing in the middle) sticks to one side of your throat for going on 20 weeks and you are taking sips of air out of a windpipe the width of a fingernail you realize how precious breathing is. how much you don’t want to waste your breath on anything other than loving words to your snuggly pooch, happy giggles in your loved ones neck, and generally upbeat tidings.

I had to schedule a biopsy for my neck today. file under: NOT UPBEAT. the woman taking my information sensed my queezy vibe. she was smiley and quiet, calming but informative. I know its a big needle. I know its for my own good. I know that knowing is better than not knowing. I know that i can’t have “aspirin or aspirin type products for 7 days” I know that I have to “fast for 12 hours before the procedure” I know that i’m scared and don’t want to be b/c there is nothing to be scared of just yet.

i know that getting my tonsils and adenoids removed is “BIG SUCK” according to my specialist. he’s really trying to not go down that road with me and is 98.35% sure that the reason I’ve been calling myself a big necked bully for weeks now is b/c of an infection and not something more sinister. here’s hoping that i will be well sometime in 2010. here’s hoping that by the time football comes back on tv that cold i had during the super bowl will finally be gone.

here’s hoping.

believe it or not you are not an empty soulless stone. you cannot drown. you know how to swim.

so. just. keep. swimming.