bs: not just my initials

Just a Sweet Sweet Baby!

ready to make new friends! The Fall of Femmes is about to begin! As weez says I need to find my rock in the sun :)

ready for my old friends playing beer pong @ the beach this weekend!

ready to drink with the sister at a pub right now! Woot!

ready to dance.

cause this time baby i’ll be bullet proof and it’s up to me and you to prove it!

September 3rd, 2010 at 2:33 pm | | Category: L word, Uncategorized, beth ditto, lgbt | No Comments »

beth ditto lyrics: hurt so good

L is for leaving
O is for on time
V is for the voices warning me I’ll lose my mind
E is for the ending
The unhappy ending of the four letter word
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my heart my never beat again baby, but have got the best of me?
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Breaking Up or Breaking Down
When I need you, you can’t be found
I want someone who’s around for me
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So i took all your pictures down
and all that’s left is an empty wall.
And if you see me around,
act like you did not see me at all.
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I don’t want the world, the world, I only want what I deserve
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It seems like lonely is a friend of mine
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Sometimes I hear you talking
Your reflection in my coffee
And I can’t stop crying
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August 30th, 2010 at 11:04 pm | | Category: lgbt | No Comments »

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MANY THANKS TO:

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August 23rd, 2010 at 7:16 pm | | Category: beth ditto, lgbt | No Comments »

Oh Happy Day!

If you’re Irish (& a GayMo) step into the parlour! there’s a welcome there for you! *

So happy that for a few hours before appeals and “stays” are issued that we gays get to enjoy the feeling of being equal because prop 8 has been deemed unconstitutional! Srsly amazing! And this bodes well for other states like my home state of NJ which has been trying to get the discrimination / not-working-civil-unions issues on the forefront of law makers for a few years.

Sad to see A-Rod’s 600th home run making more news on the wires though. literally the guy has done that very thing five-hundred-and-ninety-nine other times. History making positive legislative decisions w/r/t equal marriage rights has happened um yeah ONCE – yesterday!! just saying…

Judge Walker makes me feel like we are living the double rainbow O.m.G! video. We can almost see the triple rainbow of NATIONAL EQUAL RIGHTS FOR GAYS – almost.

don’t know what i mean (what’s does this mean? its bright and so vivid!) WATCH & LEARN

Also inspiring — This spoken word performance on FB i need to take a tip from him on delivery and slowness of my words. really well done! gave me chills!

so yeah, overall today will be counted as a good day – Gays: 1 H8ers: 0

* song lyric adapted for use in a gay themed pun

August 5th, 2010 at 5:41 pm | | Category: L word, lgbt | No Comments »

a letter i wouldn’t send

i was going to post a sappy sad post. i was going to wallow in the lonely face – title this “hello mr. heartache i’ve been expecting you”. instead here’s a list of reasons why this is for the best after all.

I’ve repealed DADT with Anne.
i can finally talk to my mother. when i began the conversation on tippy toes and dancing around the hurt, the fear, the breaky-up-ness going on in my head, she didn’t hesitate before giving her not-into-dwelling-pep-talk “oh break ups suck but, you’ll get over it.” Which is the exact same thing she said to sue RE: her BF of 2 years so there you go…

She’s also been supportive, comforting, and empowering. The fact that I can just talk to her about it without any judgment or hesitation over the female pronoun makes me well up! that heavy load of lead on my chest (protection from the anti-gay bullets i feared would be flying at me) has turned to feathers. this is the first time we’ve interacted like this. i hope it only gets better. i feel more whole, more myself, and more loved.

Change your space -> Change your life
I’ve been retailing it up (thanks again 2 my moms + sue) and bought a couch today. its adorable and red. “couch” isn’t really the best word to describe this nugget of comfort, this slice of pretty. Chaise Lounger better encompasses it. I hope to look like beth ditto on it. all fierce eyes and blown out hair.

sue and I then traipsed downstairs to Mom & Dad’s cellar and discovered all the wonderful items i need to bring up to the light. redesigning my space is a great way to scoot out those pesky dust mites and mental demons telling me i’m going to die alone. sue agrees and keeps me laughing about the whole thing.

Shadow!
I’ve gotten some major sun & booba time these past few days at casa de Sweetin. Its like I’ve checked myself into rehab here. the focus is on feeling not just good enough for someone but great for myself and the world at large! shadow is also the best dog ever and is currently snuggling next to me periodically looking up in annoyance at my typing & the voices from the speaker phone.

oh yes, didn’t i mention i am working at this min? true story: multitasking an empowering post to rid the internets of my depressedo demeanor and leading the conference call.

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I did write a letter, one i won’t send. saying everything and nothing. saying sorry and not sorry. i wrote it in my journal. i typed it as an email. and if i could: graffiti on her body. but eventually my theories couldn’t explain it at all.

“It becomes still more difficult to find
Words at once true and kind
Or not untrue and not unkind.” – Philip Larkin’s poem “Talking in Bed”

August 2nd, 2010 at 12:15 am | | Category: Upper East Side / Apt w. Itzel, lgbt, meme, success | 1 Comment »

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the beth ditto afterglow…

DANCE LIKE THERE’S NOBODY LOOKIN
let’s start with the best part (as opposed to the beginning) my wardrobe: I looked like a power lesbian from the 80s – all shoulder pads and leggings with plenty of bling. Shoes that could both give me height b/c i’m enjoying being taller than my lady on occasion and keep me from being crippled after dancing up a storm.

The venue was slammed with every color of the rainbow – with people bleeding into the entry ways! I’ve never seen Terminal 5 that crowded! Murray Hill was the cutest MC too – “We have every kind of LGBTQ in here tonight – and look there’s a straight married couple and nobody’s bothering them!” Where Beth Ditto goes the well mannered gays, straights, and non-identified queer umbrella fringe groupies will follow.

“she shimmied around the stage to the beat, giving the impression that Beth Ditto is not the centre of the universe, but the universe itself…and we mere mortals are all just playing at her game. ” well said by this dude

She was in this amazing body suit with tits-a-go-go! I would like to wear something like this if I had the nerve. She looked smashing! And the rest of the band was adorbs and in low key garb like “yeah whatever, we’re a super group. no big d”

MARY WHAT ARE YOU THINKING?!
when i heard the beat of “Firesign” my brain exploded. i started jumping around and dancing as if … well as if this was real life, and my favorite gay was singing my favorite song!! some girls in front of me didn’t know what the hell the song was (newbies) but i acted like the floor was a spring board. Life after this song would only get worse, right…except it didn’t!!!

Beth then tells us about what she’s been up to (read: breaking up! it’s hard to do yo! Pneumonia! ICK) and then says that this next song is for her neeewwww girl friend (read: person i would like to kill so i can marry her)! Then she rips into “Yesturdays News”! I let her incredible voice and fucking brilliant lyrics wash over me, start dancing, belt out every line, stare up at beth and look back at my lady and think “This is my bucket list. I can die now”

LA LA LA LA MEN IN LOVE…WITH EACH OTHER
the set list was 99.9999% all my favorite songs (i would have preferred to hear “ain’t it truth” vs. “heavy cross” but whatevs). And now w/ the magic of the internets you too can see the awesome concert that I did – i’m including all the youtube videos i could find and some of my own :)

Note: You may not experience the full effect of the power that is the goddess Ditto, the demi-god Hannah, and the Saint Nathan, because you will not be with your new main squeeze singing all the words at the top of your lungs – alternatively being cheesey and singing 2 each other then fawning over Beth’s awesomeness – breathing the same air as this force of nature, and dancing around like your life depends on it (well maybe that last one b/c the band is that good!).

NEVER GONNA BE THE SAME AGAIN…OH…ANOTHER 4 LETTER WORD

The Set List

Yr Mangled Heart

Pop Goes The World – beth’s working of the stage was sheer genius!

4 Letter Word

Listen Up – if only she could teach me all math i bet my skills would be much better!!

8th Wonder

Waves – i hope someone has this online it was sooo goood!

Dimestore Diamond – this slow jam allowed for 7th grade dances with lovers

Love Long Distance

2012 – at this moment i thought the concert couldn’t get any better!

Firesign

Standing In The Way of Control (w/ “rebel girl” by bikki kill thrown in for good mix)

Yesterday’s News

Men In Love — my working theory is that nobody has this on video cause we were all singing and happy and loving on each other and dancing and in awe of the band that is the gossip.

Heavy Cross — no one has uploaded this video b/c we are all over the song and can’t wait for beth to be over it too.

Encore: Pull Up To The Bumper (Grace Jones Cover)